I thought I lost you

Ah blogging...

The other night I was laying in my bed thinking as I do often before I go to sleep and while I was thinking my mind wandered back to mister Johnstones Creative Writting class, and back to my trusty blogging account. My need and desire to blog again was so strong, I feel like I should be writting, I feel like my life should be documented in some form and if blogging is what it takes to make me remembered then I will very well be doing it. :)

So here I am, back into blogging again!

Japanese Earthquake

I'm sure you've heard about the 8.9 earthquake which occured Friday, March 11, 2011 the largest recorded in Japanese history. The earthquake caused massive 13 foot thumanis which swept across the shores of Northern Japan pushing cars, boat, buildings and debris miles back into the main land. Think about it, if all of those objects could be pushed back that far think about how many people were pushed back with the water as well?

After the earthquake hit thousands of houses went up in smoke.

Thumanis flood homes, airports, road ways and many other areas leaving thousands of people stranded with nothing.



Up to 300 bodies ahev been found on the beach in Sendai, with another 110 found dead elsewhere. The death toll has been predicted to rise significantly once a full assesment of the damage is done. 530 people are reported missing so far and 4 million people are without power.

I hate how much I love you..

"I dont need you but I do. ♥"

What does that mean to you? In my opinion when I read that quote I think of two things, mixed feelings and regret, both things are not pleasent to think about so how could this quote be cute to someone? If someone were to tell me that they dont need me but they do, I would be one confused and two possibly hurt depending on who this came from. I saw this quote in someone's facebook status the other day and I didn't know what to think at all, I knew that this person had intended to be cute by making this staus about their significant other but honestly, its a little rude when you think of it.

Some relationships dont make sense to me at all, how could you fight with someone all the time, or how could you need someone and not need them all at the same time? Does that make sense to any of you?

Yes I know that its a proven fact that you need to be able to fight with someone if your going to be together because every relationship has its fights, no relationship is perfect and if it is then congrats you accomplished the impossible. I think that if you and your significant other are fighting all the time then somethings a little wrong there, because honestly you shouldn't have to fight over stupid things like what someone wore to school on "tacky tuesday" it doesn't matter!! Some couples just need to breath and relax, I think they should try to focus on the good points in their relationship and whenever one person gets mad at the other think to yourself: 'is this even worth it? is it worth going through all of this fighting just to get together and pretend everythings fine?' I hate seeing couples fight, it tears me apart. Even though its not my business I feel like they shouldn't be like that, especially fighting in puplic, if I walk by in a grocery store with my mom and hear a couple fighting it breaks me. They should be able to go out in public together to get the milk without arguing and going home angry. If you ever think that you dont need your significant other but you do then I think your confused and you should try to re-evaluate your relationship and see if its even worth it.


Why do some couples fight excessively? Anyone have an answer?



I'm sorry if I offended anyone, I did not intend to and this is not directed at anyone specifically.

Drunken regrets

Its going to be the best night of our lives, we prepare for this one night for months in advance, years even. Girls an boys boys everywhere stress over who they're going to go with. We all anticipate the after party for weeks.

I'm talking about our prom here. In my opinion graduation is for the parents and prom is for us. But to ruin prom by getting "smashed" and showing up to make the night "even better" is extremely rude.

It is rumoured that at last years prom a group of people went completely wasted and caused a huge scene, apparently the location which hosts our prom was outraged and it is rumoured that we are not aloud to return. I have also heard that the school doesn’t want to host our prom because of the drunken teenagers last year who ruined it... Of course I can’t prove if this is true or not but this is what I have heard.

Honestly if you want to get drunk at prom do this instead, go sober or maybe take a shot or two and then go and get wasted like you never have before AFTER PROM! Think about how much better that would be, because honestly prom is pretty early in the night to be drinking… so you could potentially be puking all that fun time up by the time prom’s over and not get to party hard afterwards..

All I’m saying is think of all the people in your class who won’t be drinking (well at least until afterwards) think of how much prom means to so many people. Most girls like I said spend years preparing and thinking about how they want their hair done, what type of dress to wear and who they’re going with... Dont ruin it for everyone else just to have a "fun time" 

The night of our lives... please arrive sober, party after J

There goes my future, my everything

At our age of 17 and 18 were all mostly in our final year of school, next year were all heading different places, some of us got accepted to college, some of us to university, some of us will travel and some will work and then decide what to do all of these are so different yet we can all relate to each other. In the end were all leaving. We will graduate from this school and move on with our lives, some of us will never see each other again and some will remain friends all the way threw to old age either way it’s a scary thought. But what if something went wrong? What if one mistake leads you to failure?

I’ve noticed that a lot of my peers have been blogging about abortion and what would happen if they got pregnant. This got me thinking of it myself and I KNOW that I would be destroyed if anything like that ever happened to me. It’s just TOO MUCH when you’re my age. I would be a mess for months, not able to sleep, eat, think straight or be myself again for a longg time, and what would everyone say? God it would be sooo scary!!

I’d like to take the time to thank my mom right now.

When she was 17 she became pregnant with me, she was in grade 12, and at this exact age in my life she would have been a month pregnant with me. It’s terrifying, its damm right awful actually. My mom is my hero actually when I think of how much she went threw for me, she kept me, and she threw away her dreams and plans all for me. She was a kid herself yet she didn’t care that she wasn’t ready, she kept me. She found a man who she loved and wanted to be with, a man she knew would provide a good family and home for me and had 4 more kids with him therefore giving me a family to love and care for. She stuck threw all the tough times with me and still in the end loves me more than anything.

For a long time I was angry at my mother for never telling me that the man I believed to be my father was actually not my father but when I think about it I’m glad she didn’t. He cared for me more than my “real” father ever did! He was the one that raised me, he was the one who was thrown into parenting and he didn’t leave my mom for it. Both my parents are my hero’s and I am so thankful that I have them.

I love you mom and dad! ♥

All *she could think about was I'm too young for this.
Got my whole life ahead.
Hell I'm just a kid myself.
How'm I gonna raise one.

All *she could see were *her dreams goin' up in smoke.
So much for ditchin' this town and hangin' out on the coast.
Oh well, those plans are long gone.

[Chorus:]
And *she said,
There goes my life.
There goes my future, my everything.
Might as well kiss it all good-bye.
There goes my life.......

A couple years of up all night and a few thousand diapers later.
That mistake *she thought he made covers up the refrigerator.
Oh yeah..........*she loves that little girl.

Momma's waiting to tuck her in,
As she fumbles up those stairs.
She smiles back at him dragging that teddy bear.
Sleep tight, blue eyes and bouncin' curls.

[Chorus:]
*She smiles.....
There goes my life.
There goes my future, my everything.
I love you, *mommy good-night.
There goes my life.

She had that Honda loaded down.
With Abercrombie clothes and 15 pairs of shoes and his American Express.
He checked the oil and slammed the hood, said you're good to go.
She hugged them both and headed off to the West Coast.

[Chorus:]
And *she cried,
There goes my life.
There goes my future, my everything.
I love you.
Baby good-bye.

There goes my life.
There goes my life.
Baby good-bye.


♥

Five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes ♥

Ah Rent.

Just the mere word can send shivers down my spine…

Most of you probably think I’m crazy right now but those of you who understand the word Rent your probably feeling similar feelings as me right now.

Well for all your Rent virgins out there let me clear things up for you. Rent began as a broad way play and is still very popular to this day in 2005 it was made into a movie and in my eyes is one of the greatest musicals of all time. Everything about it is amazing. I’m completely obsessed. Let me tell you why, well for starters Rent is the story of young musicians and artists struggling to survive and in New York under the shadow of HIV/AIDS.

I’m going to be talking about the movie version as it is more easily accessible for any readers who may be interested, even if you’re not interested give it a shot, sit down and watch the whole thing.

Just the first note in the opening song can give you goose bumps and trust me the movie only gets better from there. The movie rent taught me many things, it taught me how to love and live every moment as if it were its last, and the way this movie taught me that was so unexpected that every time I watch the movie again I learn something new from it. For example people our age don’t really realize how much can happen and change in only a short amount of time.

This movie takes place over the span of a full year and once you finish watching it you start realizing how much can happen to you in just a years time… you start focusing more on the little things and the relationships between you and everyone you interact with.

Think about this, picture your closest friend right now, the one who isn’t afraid to tell you those things you can’t even admit to yourself. Now picture them leaving… what would you do? Chances are you wouldn’t know what to do at all, you would be a mess, of course you would try going on with regular everyday life like before but without that friend there who is there to talk to about those things that just spill out of us when were in the presence of that special friend? Now think about that friend still but think about what you would do if they left unexpectedly? Life would suck wouldn’t it?

After seeing the movie my relationships with my friends changed, because people are unpredictable and you simply don’t know how long they’re going to be there for so you should treat every moment with those special friends as if it were your last and I made my friends present of how much I admired them after seeing the movie just in case they left. Rent has so many good lessons in it that its actually an advantage to watch it as apposed to not.

Every single song in the movie is on my ipod and theyre all songs in which when I get to when I press shuffle I dont skip over, yea they're that good. One of my favourite songs is called Will I http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wgQq8TTty9A and my second favourite I cant give you a link to as it would give to much of the story away but you can go watch the movie and listen to all 27 songs yourself.

HOPE YOU WATCH IT!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kzOVfCUGZeM

Measure your life in love

♥

Pretty pretty please dont ever feel like your less than perfect

Everyone has their self conscience traits, they could have been sparked from anything from someone making an un-necessary comment to you that they didn’t think would be offensive but yet it’s the one thing that you cant get out of your head. Constantly because of that comment you find yourself constantly thinking of that thing it could be anything from how big your nose is to how small your boobs are… we all have that one thing we feel awful about it could be a physical characteristic to an emotional one. I hate it when people beat themselves up about the way they look or the way they act.

Females are especially guilty of this but males are guilty as well. Both males and females feel that the way they look is not the ideal way to look, not perfect but people need to realize that there is no such thing as perfect and there is no ideal way to look because we all look different. You should never feel less than perfect with yourself ever. Whenever you look yourself in the mirror you need to get that comment of what that insensitive jerk said to you out of your head and focus on the good things. If you’re a little bit chubby in the stomach why not focus on the way your shoulders and chest draws the attention away from your stomach and dress in clothing that accents your finer traits.

There are a thousand ways to make yourself feel better in your own skin. It could be from dressing a different way to accent the finer qualities to simply telling yourself you like the way your hair looks that day. If your feeling like something is emotionally wrong, like your having continuous bad days try this, fake it! Act like your happy all the time and eventually you’ll trick your mind into believing that you’re happy and sooner than later you will start feeling happier and stop feeling negative.

Or try this, increase your physical fitness level. Trust me it works, there are thousands of proven studies out there which show the positive effects physical fitness has on teenagers. If you’re feeling like crap go for a run, and keeping running day after day after day. I know at the time you’ll feel like crap and you’ll feel like dying but in about half an hour you’ll feel amazinnggggg! Eventually if you keep up the physical fitness every day then you’ll gain more energy and improve your marks in school. Start eating a little bit better and working out and in time you’ll start losing weight, start physically looking better and feel good about yourself.

Don’t ever let yourself believe your ugly, fat, stupid or any of those other stupid insults. Believe in the good comments and the way you look at yourself in the mirror and know that you look amazing. If you believe in the negative comments and listen to them eventually that’s all you’ll become even if the comments aren’t true but if you ignore them and start doing things to help you improve you’ll get better.

Don’t ever feel like your less than f*ckin’ perfect!