There goes my future, my everything

At our age of 17 and 18 were all mostly in our final year of school, next year were all heading different places, some of us got accepted to college, some of us to university, some of us will travel and some will work and then decide what to do all of these are so different yet we can all relate to each other. In the end were all leaving. We will graduate from this school and move on with our lives, some of us will never see each other again and some will remain friends all the way threw to old age either way it’s a scary thought. But what if something went wrong? What if one mistake leads you to failure?

I’ve noticed that a lot of my peers have been blogging about abortion and what would happen if they got pregnant. This got me thinking of it myself and I KNOW that I would be destroyed if anything like that ever happened to me. It’s just TOO MUCH when you’re my age. I would be a mess for months, not able to sleep, eat, think straight or be myself again for a longg time, and what would everyone say? God it would be sooo scary!!

I’d like to take the time to thank my mom right now.

When she was 17 she became pregnant with me, she was in grade 12, and at this exact age in my life she would have been a month pregnant with me. It’s terrifying, its damm right awful actually. My mom is my hero actually when I think of how much she went threw for me, she kept me, and she threw away her dreams and plans all for me. She was a kid herself yet she didn’t care that she wasn’t ready, she kept me. She found a man who she loved and wanted to be with, a man she knew would provide a good family and home for me and had 4 more kids with him therefore giving me a family to love and care for. She stuck threw all the tough times with me and still in the end loves me more than anything.

For a long time I was angry at my mother for never telling me that the man I believed to be my father was actually not my father but when I think about it I’m glad she didn’t. He cared for me more than my “real” father ever did! He was the one that raised me, he was the one who was thrown into parenting and he didn’t leave my mom for it. Both my parents are my hero’s and I am so thankful that I have them.

I love you mom and dad! ♥

All *she could think about was I'm too young for this.
Got my whole life ahead.
Hell I'm just a kid myself.
How'm I gonna raise one.

All *she could see were *her dreams goin' up in smoke.
So much for ditchin' this town and hangin' out on the coast.
Oh well, those plans are long gone.

[Chorus:]
And *she said,
There goes my life.
There goes my future, my everything.
Might as well kiss it all good-bye.
There goes my life.......

A couple years of up all night and a few thousand diapers later.
That mistake *she thought he made covers up the refrigerator.
Oh yeah..........*she loves that little girl.

Momma's waiting to tuck her in,
As she fumbles up those stairs.
She smiles back at him dragging that teddy bear.
Sleep tight, blue eyes and bouncin' curls.

[Chorus:]
*She smiles.....
There goes my life.
There goes my future, my everything.
I love you, *mommy good-night.
There goes my life.

She had that Honda loaded down.
With Abercrombie clothes and 15 pairs of shoes and his American Express.
He checked the oil and slammed the hood, said you're good to go.
She hugged them both and headed off to the West Coast.

[Chorus:]
And *she cried,
There goes my life.
There goes my future, my everything.
I love you.
Baby good-bye.

There goes my life.
There goes my life.
Baby good-bye.


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Five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes ♥

Ah Rent.

Just the mere word can send shivers down my spine…

Most of you probably think I’m crazy right now but those of you who understand the word Rent your probably feeling similar feelings as me right now.

Well for all your Rent virgins out there let me clear things up for you. Rent began as a broad way play and is still very popular to this day in 2005 it was made into a movie and in my eyes is one of the greatest musicals of all time. Everything about it is amazing. I’m completely obsessed. Let me tell you why, well for starters Rent is the story of young musicians and artists struggling to survive and in New York under the shadow of HIV/AIDS.

I’m going to be talking about the movie version as it is more easily accessible for any readers who may be interested, even if you’re not interested give it a shot, sit down and watch the whole thing.

Just the first note in the opening song can give you goose bumps and trust me the movie only gets better from there. The movie rent taught me many things, it taught me how to love and live every moment as if it were its last, and the way this movie taught me that was so unexpected that every time I watch the movie again I learn something new from it. For example people our age don’t really realize how much can happen and change in only a short amount of time.

This movie takes place over the span of a full year and once you finish watching it you start realizing how much can happen to you in just a years time… you start focusing more on the little things and the relationships between you and everyone you interact with.

Think about this, picture your closest friend right now, the one who isn’t afraid to tell you those things you can’t even admit to yourself. Now picture them leaving… what would you do? Chances are you wouldn’t know what to do at all, you would be a mess, of course you would try going on with regular everyday life like before but without that friend there who is there to talk to about those things that just spill out of us when were in the presence of that special friend? Now think about that friend still but think about what you would do if they left unexpectedly? Life would suck wouldn’t it?

After seeing the movie my relationships with my friends changed, because people are unpredictable and you simply don’t know how long they’re going to be there for so you should treat every moment with those special friends as if it were your last and I made my friends present of how much I admired them after seeing the movie just in case they left. Rent has so many good lessons in it that its actually an advantage to watch it as apposed to not.

Every single song in the movie is on my ipod and theyre all songs in which when I get to when I press shuffle I dont skip over, yea they're that good. One of my favourite songs is called Will I http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wgQq8TTty9A and my second favourite I cant give you a link to as it would give to much of the story away but you can go watch the movie and listen to all 27 songs yourself.

HOPE YOU WATCH IT!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kzOVfCUGZeM

Measure your life in love

♥

Pretty pretty please dont ever feel like your less than perfect

Everyone has their self conscience traits, they could have been sparked from anything from someone making an un-necessary comment to you that they didn’t think would be offensive but yet it’s the one thing that you cant get out of your head. Constantly because of that comment you find yourself constantly thinking of that thing it could be anything from how big your nose is to how small your boobs are… we all have that one thing we feel awful about it could be a physical characteristic to an emotional one. I hate it when people beat themselves up about the way they look or the way they act.

Females are especially guilty of this but males are guilty as well. Both males and females feel that the way they look is not the ideal way to look, not perfect but people need to realize that there is no such thing as perfect and there is no ideal way to look because we all look different. You should never feel less than perfect with yourself ever. Whenever you look yourself in the mirror you need to get that comment of what that insensitive jerk said to you out of your head and focus on the good things. If you’re a little bit chubby in the stomach why not focus on the way your shoulders and chest draws the attention away from your stomach and dress in clothing that accents your finer traits.

There are a thousand ways to make yourself feel better in your own skin. It could be from dressing a different way to accent the finer qualities to simply telling yourself you like the way your hair looks that day. If your feeling like something is emotionally wrong, like your having continuous bad days try this, fake it! Act like your happy all the time and eventually you’ll trick your mind into believing that you’re happy and sooner than later you will start feeling happier and stop feeling negative.

Or try this, increase your physical fitness level. Trust me it works, there are thousands of proven studies out there which show the positive effects physical fitness has on teenagers. If you’re feeling like crap go for a run, and keeping running day after day after day. I know at the time you’ll feel like crap and you’ll feel like dying but in about half an hour you’ll feel amazinnggggg! Eventually if you keep up the physical fitness every day then you’ll gain more energy and improve your marks in school. Start eating a little bit better and working out and in time you’ll start losing weight, start physically looking better and feel good about yourself.

Don’t ever let yourself believe your ugly, fat, stupid or any of those other stupid insults. Believe in the good comments and the way you look at yourself in the mirror and know that you look amazing. If you believe in the negative comments and listen to them eventually that’s all you’ll become even if the comments aren’t true but if you ignore them and start doing things to help you improve you’ll get better.

Don’t ever feel like your less than f*ckin’ perfect!

Teens shouldnt have sex?

Last semester in my English class I wrote an article on all the reasons why teens shouldn't have sex. Of course I dont completely believe that teenagers SHOULDN'T be having sex its just that before a teen decides its time for them to have sex they should think of all the reasons why and what may come from it. I also wrote this article in character of an older lady who is exoperienced and all of that jazz. Anyways, I got a 100% on my assignment and I thought I'd share it here :)

let me know what you think.

TEENS SHOULDN’T HAVE SEX… It’s as simple as that! The other day I was reading a book, Forever... by Judy Blume, it was wonderfully written and easily relatable. It’s a love story between a high school girl and her boyfriend. The book takes you through the stages of their relationship from their first fight to promises of forever. Now this is what got me thinking, the boyfriend in the story pressures his girlfriend into sex... and I started to think about how many young girls are in the exact situation as the main character in the book. 

The average age for both male and female Canadians to loose their virginity is sixteen-seventeen. Personally I think that sex should be looked at as something special, something sacred that bonds to people who are in love together. Don’t get me wrong sex is great… when you’re older, mature and you at a stable point in your life where if something happened you know you would be able to handle it. But for teenagers… NO!

I have many reasons for why I believe teens shouldn’t be having sex and I can sum it all up in three words: Pressure. Pregnancy. Purity.

 For starters, pressure.  Most girls feel pressure to “perform” for lack of better words. They feel that if they don’t “put out” for oral, vaginal and anal sex that they will loose their partners, and when you’re a teenager your partner seems to be the base and soul of your life. If girls aren’t being pressured by their partners then chances are that they’re being pressured by their friends. In the end most people feel that it’s easier to just give in to having sex then to explain why not. Just remember that not everyone your age is having sex! Although it seems like everyone is “doing it” chances are the people that talk about it the most are all full of shit. Girls and boys you have the choice here! Sex is something special and it is very risky if something goes wrong.

Secondly, pregnancy. For teenagers you have a 25% chance each month on getting pregnant regardless if you’re having sex or not. If you’re having sex your body believes that you’re trying to get pregnant so the chances go up another 25%. Pregnancy changes your life. It affects every aspect of your life, from your interactions with people you care about, your school life, your finances, the view people judge you by, and every relationship in your life changes from that point on. Regardless if you give the child up or not, going through the process changes you. When your young you have your whole life ahead of you, you can do anything you want to do, go to college, university, make something of yourself… but the moment you get pregnant it changes both your life permanently but the fathers as well. Boys you don’t realize this but when you knock up a girl it comes back to bite you in the bum. Think about it, girls have friends and if you treat her wrong and get her pregnant her friends will kill you! Pregnancy is no joke! It ruins your life. Only 40% of teen moms who give birth at age seventeen or earlier finish high school. Teen moms are 63% less likely to marry after they’ve had a child and if the father sticks around chances are a divorce is to follow.

Finally, purity. People, adults and teenagers alike don’t realize that you only loose your virginity once. You only get one chance and as much as some people don’t see the value in that, what happens if you loose it with the wrong person? What if at the time you thought maybe you shouldn’t be doing this and regretted it big time later? Loosing your virginity is in my eyes the stage of defeat. A lot of people see it as love but to me personally I see it as giving yourself to them literally. You need to make sure that you are both physically and mentally ready to have sex before you just assume that since it physically feels nice at the time that doesn’t mean that later when you’re thinking back you won’t regret it. If you loose your virginity when you are a teen with someone you think you love but end up in tears about it because it was a mistake. You should wait until YOU know that its time. Not give in to sex because it’s easier to just do it than to explain why not. Take the time and remember pressure, pregnancy, purity. Teenagers out there, you have control over your own body and you should never give away something as special as your virginity until you know its right. It’s your life, you’re in control. Don’t end up like the girl in the book.

Grow up a little and stop

People also think that they’re reputation will go do if they do something that is out of the ordinary for their specific group of people. I noticed that this happens a lot in schools, just walking down the hall I can hear all the different cliques and groups talking about how they wouldn’t never be caught dead doing something the group down the hall does. But think about this, were all humans’ right? And if the group is just down the hall from you chances are they’re the same age as you, they go through all the stresses of everyday high school life just like you do and yet THEY are losers for expressing how they are?

I have never been popular. Ever and yes I have been guilty of bashing other groups that were less popular than myself because I thought that it would put me on top quicker. I thought that me being rude would put me on top quicker than me being nice to them. But then I grew up.

I realized that if you bash another group or a specific person you’re not doing any good. You don’t get higher up any quicker because once you’re on the bottom you’re stuck there. Being nice or mean has nothing to do with it, we all walk into kindergarten with our Barbie’s and action figures scared as hell just wanting to find someone else to play with and we get ranked. It’s decided on day one who will survive and who won’t. Bashing others does NOTHING for you. It only causes negative effects on the other person. Think about this, you don’t like being put down, called dirty or ugly or gay so why do it to someone else?

IT’S SICKENING!

 When I hear people making fun of others, especially those who are really nice and do nothing to deserve getting made fun as they did nothing wrong yet people constantly ridicule them and pick on them day by day… the victim doesn’t deserve that so why do it?

If you have something wrong with you don’t take it out on someone else, simply go up to that person and talk to them, I bet you a hundred bucks the person you make fun of can help you more than anything!

So next time you go to bash someone think of the consequences, think of how that person doesn’t deserve to be made fun of for anything and try talking about it before you tear someone down. Think about what you’re doing before you do it.   

Dear Mr. Valentine,

Oh St. Valentine, I don’t think you knew what you were getting us into with your crazy ideas of sharing love with each other.

Truth is Mr. Valentine, I think you were a tad bit naïve, because if you really cared about love as much as everyone says you did then why do we only have one day of year where we share all that love? And think about this Valentine, what about all those poor souls out there with no love? It’s a little depressing for them not to have a special someone to share their day with don’t you think?

Don’t get me wrong Saint I’m not a hater of your holiday I’m simply stating what many people feel on your special day. Valentines Day is cute in a sense, like if you have a crush on someone you can express your feelings for them on this one day of the year without looking like an idiot but honestly, how many people are going to do that?

Personally I think your day is blown out of proportion and a tad bit corny… well really corny actually.

Think of it, your holiday is the one time of year where boys all over the world turn into a Shakespearian characters and start screaming their love for you. I’m just saying that for the girl that’s a little bit embarrassing don’t you think? And all the huge teddy bears and huge boxes of chocolate (well the chocolates okay) all of it is just sooooo corny!

Mr. Valentine you didn’t think that not everyone is going to love your holiday. Your holiday is a 50-50 thing, either you love it or you hate it you can’t be torn between the two and if you were so loving and caring why didn’t you think of sharing the love with all the singles out there hmm? If a girl wants to tell a boy she loves him or whatever on Valentines Day no boy is going to give a crap… well unless he likes her too and was just waiting for her to say something but in all seriousness she is more than likely going to make a fool of herself.

Oh and Valentine you didn’t realize something else with your clever idea of the special day… What on earth do you buy for a boy on Valentines Day? Seriously, most boys don’t like chocolate and I’m sure a young gentleman wouldn’t necessarily love a bouquet of flowers now would they? Or necklaces or all of the other “gifts of love” as you call them. Sure gents like food, but what if he plans to wine and dine you for Valentines Day… what do you give him in return?

All the romance and corny love is just too much that most woman spend February the 14^th hiding in their basements with the tub of Ben & Jerry’s proclaiming about how much they hate your day...

No offence. :P

But think about this Mr. Valentine, what about sharing love with your signifcant other every day of the year? Why should there only be one day where you go above and beyond what you regularily would to express the way you feel about someone?

Personally I think it would be a thousand times cuter if you showed up at a girls house with a bouquet of flowers on any given day then the one expected day of the year. If you showed up at the girl of your interest house and told her you loved her or, if you were already dating her or married and you surprised her with a box of chocolates or something of equal corniness then you would win her over much better than if you were to do the exact same gesture on the one day of year where boys are expected to go above and beyond by their wives, girlfriends or interests. Don’t you agree? For any gents who might be reading this right now take notes cause I’m speaking from the majority of woman who feel the exact same way.

This is just my opinion think what you would like but St. Valentine you weren't thinking very well.