There goes my future, my everything

At our age of 17 and 18 were all mostly in our final year of school, next year were all heading different places, some of us got accepted to college, some of us to university, some of us will travel and some will work and then decide what to do all of these are so different yet we can all relate to each other. In the end were all leaving. We will graduate from this school and move on with our lives, some of us will never see each other again and some will remain friends all the way threw to old age either way it’s a scary thought. But what if something went wrong? What if one mistake leads you to failure?

I’ve noticed that a lot of my peers have been blogging about abortion and what would happen if they got pregnant. This got me thinking of it myself and I KNOW that I would be destroyed if anything like that ever happened to me. It’s just TOO MUCH when you’re my age. I would be a mess for months, not able to sleep, eat, think straight or be myself again for a longg time, and what would everyone say? God it would be sooo scary!!

I’d like to take the time to thank my mom right now.

When she was 17 she became pregnant with me, she was in grade 12, and at this exact age in my life she would have been a month pregnant with me. It’s terrifying, its damm right awful actually. My mom is my hero actually when I think of how much she went threw for me, she kept me, and she threw away her dreams and plans all for me. She was a kid herself yet she didn’t care that she wasn’t ready, she kept me. She found a man who she loved and wanted to be with, a man she knew would provide a good family and home for me and had 4 more kids with him therefore giving me a family to love and care for. She stuck threw all the tough times with me and still in the end loves me more than anything.

For a long time I was angry at my mother for never telling me that the man I believed to be my father was actually not my father but when I think about it I’m glad she didn’t. He cared for me more than my “real” father ever did! He was the one that raised me, he was the one who was thrown into parenting and he didn’t leave my mom for it. Both my parents are my hero’s and I am so thankful that I have them.

I love you mom and dad! ♥

All *she could think about was I'm too young for this.
Got my whole life ahead.
Hell I'm just a kid myself.
How'm I gonna raise one.

All *she could see were *her dreams goin' up in smoke.
So much for ditchin' this town and hangin' out on the coast.
Oh well, those plans are long gone.

[Chorus:]
And *she said,
There goes my life.
There goes my future, my everything.
Might as well kiss it all good-bye.
There goes my life.......

A couple years of up all night and a few thousand diapers later.
That mistake *she thought he made covers up the refrigerator.
Oh yeah..........*she loves that little girl.

Momma's waiting to tuck her in,
As she fumbles up those stairs.
She smiles back at him dragging that teddy bear.
Sleep tight, blue eyes and bouncin' curls.

[Chorus:]
*She smiles.....
There goes my life.
There goes my future, my everything.
I love you, *mommy good-night.
There goes my life.

She had that Honda loaded down.
With Abercrombie clothes and 15 pairs of shoes and his American Express.
He checked the oil and slammed the hood, said you're good to go.
She hugged them both and headed off to the West Coast.

[Chorus:]
And *she cried,
There goes my life.
There goes my future, my everything.
I love you.
Baby good-bye.

There goes my life.
There goes my life.
Baby good-bye.


♥